This is something I tend to struggle with. Being authentic with God instead of sugar coating things. I’m not sure why, but I always feel the need to put a formal “shine the best light on this” kind of spin on everything I tell Him. Sometimes I act more like I’m trying to talk to my boss than to a loving Father. Thinking about it I suppose I don’t trust Him enough. I know He already knows everything I could ever tell Him, and I also understand He wants to hear it anyway.
God wants us to tell Him what’s going on in our lives. Our prayer lives should consist of more than one type of prayer. Traditionally, Catholic prayers fall into one of four types: adoration, contrition, petition, and thanksgiving. God doesn’t want robot followers though. He wants us to be real with Him. When you’re angry with God, it’s okay to tell Him. If there’s an obstacle in between you and God, talk about it with Him. Together you can overcome anything.
Lately, I’ve felt very distant from God. I recognize this is entirely my fault. Due to some trouble brewing at my home parish, I decided to leave and go somewhere else. Unfortunately for the most part I have failed to go elsewhere. I’ve let myself drift far from the God who loves me so much. I know where I want to go. I’ve found another parish, and some friends let me tag along there a couple of times. There are people I know there. The parish has a great priest, people I know, and it’s only 15 minutes away. I just need to go.
I haven’t because I’ve been depressed lately, and also I don’t trust God as much as I should. I’m afraid to jump to a new parish, even though I’m fairly certain everything will turn out better than I can imagine.
Authentic communication isn’t a magical cure for all of your life’s problems. I’m not saying that just telling God what’s wrong is going to magically fix everything. (Although I won’t rule out miracles)
Authentic communication is just vital to any relationship, and what other relationship could be more important than the one we have with God? I encourage you brothers and sisters to just be real with God. Whatever is going on in your life, you can talk to Him about it. It’s better than just pretending things are fine or avoiding certain topics. God is a gentleman and won’t force you to do things or talk about things you don’t want to talk about. In the end it’s up to you. Sometimes it’s hard to pick the better choice.
Until next time, God bless you.